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Friday, March 31, 2006:


OH HURRAY! the blog site is back UP! wootwoot. rae argued the case basically (although we were supposed to do it together).. and SO a big THANK YOU rae.. NOW i can blog. heehee. :D anyway, so this is what i wrote on tuesday, i think..


TUESDAY 28th March
5.50pm


you never know how blessed you are until people around you are in trouble or in a disaster. we prayed for the people of north queensland who recently just had a cyclone hit their country last sunday during church.. it was really mind blowning to see those photographs. then i thought i about the english article we read during class last week about a woman who was gave birth to two children who were diagnosed with severe autism and about this woman who was murdered on the 10th of feb by her husband this year while i was enjoying myself celebrating my birthday with so much happiness cos i did so well for o's and i swam well for interhouse.. and it just struck me how self centered i am and how my world only revolves around me and my problems and my family and friends. not that i shouldnt be blaming myself or anything about what happened to that lady on my birthday and i should feel guilty for her being killed on a day where i enjoyed myself. its just that i feel bad for complaining about all the small things in my life when others are suffering, especially when i have the chance to be happy. so yeah. i'm blessed. i shouldnt be complaining about my life ay.


anyway. if you guys dont already know, i've lost access to my blog! NOOOOOOOOO. *whines* this isnt supposed to happen (see here i go again, whining, just that I CANT HELP IT! this IS a CRISIS!) *grumbles and mumbles* so i'll only put up my posts on a weekly basis, although i'll be writing them everyday, so i guess in a way its a good thing cos you only need to read my blog once a week ay. BUT that doesnt mean you dont tag okay! tag meeee. :D :D :D in the meantime, rae and i are gonna try argue with the IT guy for our rights to our blogs because if we dont we'll lose our only form of contact with the sg people besides emailing, but thats so time consuming because its so troublesome to send mass emails instead of posting up on a personal page. *gives the IT dept the evilsss.* but HEY i'm not supposed to be complaining so i'll shut up for now.


I DID SO WELL FOR CHEM! hahahahhaha. *sings* joy-oyyy joy-oyyy... i've got such joy in my heart.. BUT THEN AGAIN. everyone did really really well for the test SOOoo its not really counted, BUT good on me! :D i thought i was gonna do quite badly because i DIDNT understand how you get those complex ions thingamagics (i.e. aluminate ions or zincate ions etc) BUT by the grace of God and how he pushed me to study, i did AWESOMELY well. (: but it's gonna be a poo-ey test for h/bio tmr BECAUSE i havent had the time to study! -horrors- i was doing econs over the weekend cos we had a test today. ): *sobs* thats what you get for inconsistency. AND we had this econs lecture today with some speaker called nicky cusworth and i didnt understand when she tried to expound on the rationalism of the economy. damn. i could have used that one hour to study man! >.< though mrs casserly would be proud to say that i chose to attend the lecture instead. but i think she would rather me not be there if i was going to not listen. gahh. i feel like i disappointed her or something. nehh.


i should get down to studying hey. bleah. i kinda wish i didnt take h/biol now. tho some people from church say that its the EASIEST subject cos all you have to do is memorise, But the thing is. I HAVE NO BRAIN SPACE FOR MEMORISING! @#%!$ only numbers working in my head. bleah. i should do accountancy or like commerce or economics or engineering in uni ay. BUT its gonna be so boring. i'm so lost. sighhhh.


sally oh sally.



a shout of praise.
7:24 AM

Saturday, March 25, 2006:


school's gonna end soon. 2 more weeks. loads of stuff going on. bleagh.

not good at all.

at least my fitness regime has shown some results. e.g. i dont pant anymore when i run fast. BUT it's making me eat more cos i get hungrier easily, plus the weather is turning heaps cold and i exactly run in the rain either. so the excercise plan is gonna fade off soon. and i'm gonna get wayyy fat. this is bad news.

nothing is well.

*groans and moans*

i'm going to look like a fat cow in my ball dress.

and i'm lost and confused.



a shout of praise.
4:16 PM

Wednesday, March 22, 2006:


Here I am sitting in the middle of my human biology lesson (which happens to be a com lab session because we're doing web-based research today during class) and miraculously it starts to pour. cats AND dogs. How I wonder. Its really amazing. This can only mean TWO things.
1. it's the change of the season and its FINALLY coming to autumn.
2. I CANT run after school today.

Ah well. My loss.

Its gonna be religion next. Its like a sleeping class cos we do meditation. :P how cool is THAT. Only today it cant really be outdoors cos its pouring. OH WAIT A MINUTE. The rain kinda stopped already. Figures why we get such low rainfall figures for Australia during geography last yr. haha. But the grass will be icky today. So I'm not gonna risk lying on the ground and getting my uniform dirty, then I’d have to do laundry again this week. my clothes are piling up and I just did laundry on Monday! Must be because I shower so much.

which reminds me. i stayed for really long in the hot shower this morning cos it was freezing and its summer/autumn. can you imagine winter? i probably wont want to come out. maybe i wont bathe at all. yuck.




a shout of praise.
2:41 PM

Monday, March 20, 2006:


havent had the chance to go online for a long while so sorry to those who emailed me over the weekend.. had a really hectic weekend last week.

friday. after school esha's mom dropped me at warwick train station so that i could take a train down to the city so that ernest could pick me up and send me for xfyre. it was a really really long wait cos i had NO idea that the city is jammed with people in cars going home from work.. (really can understand human geog in perth. rmb the settlements chapter? well you can see it in perth. :P really useful, geog is. (: ) and so i had to wait for about an hour plus for ernest to finish weaving through the ginormous traffic jam so that i co uld finally get into the car and get to xfyre. haha. and GOSH i was still in my school u and my school hat. made me look like such a prat, hey. anyway. so i went to xfyre exactly at 6.30 and every one (EVERYONE) saw me in my school u. and i was really really embarrassed. (only private school people have like proper uniforms, public school is like the canadian school uniform, just a polo shirt and skirt or jeans... or something.) so boon, claira's (she's my cell leader) bf sent me and hui home. cos her parents werent in town. they were at some golf thing.

sat. went to the beach! :D took the 9.30 bus up to the city and then transfered to train up to warwick again to meet esha's parents who sent me, esh, toby (cousin from hale) and simi (sister) to the beach.. met this nice lady who just got off the train from adelaide.. the thing about perth is that everyone here is really friendly, they always chat to total complete strangers. like in a shop? the person behind the counter would just start talking to you as if you guys were old friends. funny thing was on the bus i met jen (she another cell leader in church) and she was going to work at the southlands (suburb shopping ctr. - see the human geog? :p ) food court. on the way back from the beach i met her again on the bus and she was on her way back from work. okay maybe it isnt that funny.. but i thought it was.cos i was going to play while she was going to work. ah well. my lame attempts at humour. never seems to get anyone cracking. except for probably dee. who laughs at anything. and xiao too. or maybe their just being polite, laughing at my not-so-jokey jokes. went for another run in the park near my house (shall start calling my guardian's house that cos it sounds warm and fuzzy. (: ) and it felt good! there were people at the park.. playing cricket, golf (I KNOW HEY!!! GOLF! weird i tell you! :/ ) and some funny gym-cum-dance-cum-taichi thing.. was really strange. but i had a good run. (: should start bringing my shoes home every weekend now. i think i eat more on the weekends than weekdays. or maybe its the same. but all i know is i'm putting on weight! bad kristi bad. anyway. there was this little kid (probably about 4 yrs?) at the park and he was really cute! (: his dad was trying to teach him cricket and he had this little cricket bat and was swinging it around and going in circles chasing the ball and tapping it.. AHHH. so cute. reminds me of the little boy we saw during study group on that music thing.. he was about that age too! he was so so cute! (: (: (:

sun day. church! went there like ULTRA early cos hui was singing for svc in the choir thing. (btw we dont have the choir on every week. its just this week. dont know why but yeah.. special occasion (: ) its really cool at church cos they call svc celebration instead of svc.. and we sermons are called church envisioning. it really isnt sermon. we get our sermons during xfyre.. and the adults get them during cell i think. but anyway. (i keep digressing) we woke up at 6.45 and left at 8. HUI IS A TOILET HOGGER! she spent ages in the toilet leaving me really little time to brush my teeth and wash up and stuff. hmph. i dont like you hui. ): but it was really cool being at church early. (: i love being early. cos in the time before you can prepare yourself and stuff before everyone starts coming in and you get distracted and all and start to talk to you friends. dont know why. and just watching the band practising just really calms me down and all. i miss all the times i played at church though. its been a while (since watchnite) since i played and i need to start playing again. flic said i could start with xfyre.. but i dont think i dare to. all the musicians are really really good.. i dont know if i match them.. i'm not good enough. and like kylie is really really talented. she's like claire! can play the violin and keys really really well. :/ she played the violin on sunday for a song.. i think it was days of elijah.. it was really really good! and yeah. she's only year 9! thats like.. sec2! gah. she's good. anyway. after church we went out to the city as usual for lunch. hui's bday is next sunday! i dont know what to get her. ):

sun night. me esh and dee (and esh's parents, simi, chloe (simi's friend) and toby and killian as well) went to music under the stars at hale.. i thought it was really good. the hale-stmarys bands and orchestras (note the plural~!) and other performances by old boys and the chamber choir and all. OMG i thought it was uber awesome. though toby and killian might beg to differ. they were really bored by all the jazz and classical stuff. haha. finally met our dearest KIM CHIN! haha, andrea's really crazy over him. they're like desk partners or something like that in orch and he's like YEAR TEN. but anyway. andrea and nat set up this ILKC (i love kim chin club) and no guesses who the president and co-president of the club is. well i'm hospitality and esh is publicity. LOL. its so amusing i tell you.. and he dominates our lunch disscussion topics. we really heard alot about him from nat and andrea. no kidding. (well the fawning over him part is all exxagerated but ah well. (: )

today. school's started as usual. boring stuff. nothing much. except that i've got a sprained ankle from goodness-knows-what. maybe i stressed my ankle last night or something i'll nvr know. but when i went for my morning run it was aching like crazy. hmm. dont know whats wrong. but i ended up not going for my afternoon run cos it hurt (but mostly cos i was feeling rather lazy. heh.) anyway. should get started on work.

PS. PEOPLE who sent me emails and stuff. sorry i dont really have time to reply. i shall wake up early tmr and after my run i'll reply you guys okay! hang in there. :p



a shout of praise.
7:15 PM

Thursday, March 16, 2006:


i remember the other day during econs there was a magpie/crow or some weird angmoh bird outside the classroom croaking and we were doing our worksheets and i totally couldnt concentrate on what i was reading cos i kept reading the same lines over and over again. i just felt like throttling the bird. then i went to shut the door while 9 pairs of eyes watched me. and my teacher said "why, i thought you were going to kill that bird!" and i replied " i would love to but it'd be too cruel," and she gets up and says "well, i'm going to go throw something at the bird" and i was like WHAT!!!! and she picked up a whiteboard duster and went outside and goodness knows what she did to the poor bird. but it was a funny incident which made the whole class laugh and we missed approximately 5 mins of the lesson. ha.

well. i've got an applic test tmr on unvariate & bivariate stats and sets & venn diagrams before school starts tmr. have to pull myself out of bed and get to school by 7:50 in order to take the test. i'd better sleep early tonight. not that it always works. for example last night, i slept at 10:30 after setting my alarm at 6.30 (to go for my morning run this morning). woke up at 6.30 but i went back to sleep after that. and guess what time i woke up? 8:30. and mciver (she's the really mean housemother) came into my room and scolded me cos i was gonna be late for school. how mean. i bet she didnt know about my record 5 min get-to-school morning rush. oh well. i did manage to get to school in time (of course!) in the end. so yeah. i hope i dont wake up late tmr otherwise i'll fail the test. :/

oh well. have to go for the afternoon run now. have to run extra cos i didnt run this morning! GAHHH!



a shout of praise.
4:20 PM

Monday, March 13, 2006:


during chemistry -
is phenolphthalein "fee-nolf-ta-lain" or "fee-nof-tha-leen" ????

and is it sulphuric or sulfuric?

And did you know Cr(OH)3 + NAOH -> Na[Cr(OH)4] ?
I still don’t get how you can add 2 hydroxides together and get something :
And damn, I don't understand the method of mole calculations here.

gahhhh. i'm so confused. chemistry is weird alright.
but.
all is well. I'll manage.


after school -
accompanied some friends to the shopping ctr after school cos we arent allowed to go by ourselves so my friend made me go. anyway, we took the wrong bus back and we ended up stranded on the highway. damn. i thought the number of the bus was 267! but it turned out to be 426. gah. we were all blind i guess! and we paid 50 cents for nothing. like whatttt the hell. and we still had to walk back on the pathless road. how dangerous was it! and there were probably lots of people staring at these 6 yr 12 boarders trekking across the bushlands back to school. it was highly stupid and embarrassing i tell you. i wont be suprised if Mrs Thompson (our principal) calls us to her office and lecture us for walking along the road in our school uniforms. but then again, the aussies can be bothered with us - they would probably laugh their heads off in the car for our stupidness. i bet in sg there would be a million callers informing Ms Kon already about the bad bad behaviour of these jay-walking MG girls. ha. and we'd probably get lectured in front of the whole school during assembly and she would go on about how embarrassed she was to answer the anonymous phone call, as she always does.

ahh. those MG days.

sweet memories.



a shout of praise.
7:21 PM


hm.. its been a long weekend which didnt seem that long. i went to the shopping ctr on friday after school to go change my credit cos there was a mistake somewhere, they gave me the wrong amt ($10 when i gave $30), so thank God i could change it, cos there was no reciept.. then right after that was intersch swimming, which was quite a depressing sight cos firstly, i could have been the one swimming if not for my lazy self who didnt want to wake up at 630 for swimming training, and secondly, phenros (another girls' private sch) won again for the 13th consecutive year (i think) and we came in 4th out of the 8 schs. not bad, i guess. stayed over at esha's and we had msn! like finally :P didnt go for xfyre that night. but oh well. (: its alright.

sat: me n esh went to trigg beach. and all i can say is.. WOW. i love it. the beach is beyooootiful! its even nicer than sentosa! the only irritating thing is the sand. i dont like sand. ): took a train after for the first time and met ernest at the city train station and he brought me for a look around UWA and it was really pretty, like the architecture and all. i wouldnt mind studying there. (: and after we went to his house and went on MSN again! WAHAHA. i'm so deprived. then went to hui's house after. and watched dinotopia while having dinner. woots. nice show. but i fell asleep infront of the tv cos i was tireddd.

sun: couldnt wake up to go to church but i did eventually. and we sat in our cluster groups. there's this thing about my church. sunday services are like different. its like worship then sermon right, but sermon is not sermon. its like.. different. we get sermon at xfyre though. well sermon today was about easter and how we're gonna evangelise and reach out to many many people. sigh. i dunno how i'm gonna invite cos church is so far away from school (most of my sch friends stay in the north while church is in the south) and so transport is going to be a problem. hmm. there'll be away. i've got to pray abt it. (: had connect group (like cell group but not really cell cos we dont do cell stuff, we just get together and hang and talk to one another. connect! (: ) after and we went to the city (again). took the bus! hahaha. and we went ballistic taking photos. of helen. gosh. haha. you dont wanna know how much we took of her in the whole day. but yeah. she just kept deleting cos there was some imperfections in the pictures. and dear jen couldnt stop reminding me that phenros won for intersch. damn. haha. all these phenros people. bah.

mon. school again. i'm tired. went for a run this morning with jeannie and heh. we stopped after 2 rounds. we're really unfit eh. oh well. stamina takes a while to build up, if thats any consolation to me. yawn. school starts in 7 mins. its like 8:48 now. i feel like staying here in front of the computer! damn. the sg people have holidays! unfair. but OH WELL. theirs only last for a week but mine lasts for 2 weeks! :D coolios.

anyway. i should go to school now. (:



a shout of praise.
8:28 AM

Thursday, March 9, 2006:


spider solitare really makes you think. its become my favourite thing to do when i've got nothing else better to do or when i get irritated with my math questions. so i play spider solitare, medium difficulty, and try to arrange the collected decks in alternating red and black. its not as easy as you think. there are a million and one possiblities. and one wrong move may mean the end of the game. and trust me. you'd press the F2 key ALOT.

mhmm. this blog layout is boring. i need some colour in it. heehee.

anyway. todays a really slack day. i've only got applic homework. oh my duck. the tests today were so bad! calculus was first period, and boy was my brain NOT unfunctioning. i spent the first 10 mins staring at the 6 or 7 pages (cant really rmb) of the booklet and i just couldnt think of how to do the qns. damn. and its calculus! wth. its the only good subject i have. ): then after recess in period 3 it was econs. haha. what a laugh. i planned the essay so that it'd look like i didnt have time to finish it but guess what, i really had more points in the end to write about and i didnt have time. what an irony. i mean, it was bad enough that i didnt have any of my research to refer to, (we were given the question ahead so that we can do research) and i couldnt remember anything. i tell you, i do not work well under pressure unless i know my work really well. which i obviously didnt. i rmb last night i was panicking because i didnt have any thing to write on (the qn was describe and account for inflationary trends in aust in 2005) and the internet time was over (it was past 8) so i was really desperate. i smsed joel tan to ask him since he's done econs in jc before BUT he wasnt any help (its not your fault joel, you dont know whats happning in the OZ economy anyway), and flic called and i told her my dilemma and she got alvin to help me (he helped me for my first econs test, which without him i think i wouldnt have passed) but it still wasnt any help cos his information was just theories and really outdated information. NOT 2005. so i gave up. shucks. i dont have good feelings about these tests. i seriously think i wont pass my econs at all, (i only had like intro, measuring inflation, and 3 pts!) and i'm not going to get past 60% for calc. gahhhhhh. worst nightmare ever.

but at least thank God for my chemistry test. see how fast the teachers mark here? we just had the test yesterday and its returned already. and i did quite well compared to my fail on the in class check. and i was really satisfied with myself. but its not my glory but God's. i guess whats been shouting out at me lately is that you know, if God sent you here, and you're given the chance to study here, do your best, because thats what God wants out of you, thats all he's asking from you. or at least i think thats whats he's planning anyway. its all in the plan. so, i'm putting my best foot forward. be it studies or in relationships. i'm just going to let him handle everything and i will stick to his plan.

yeah. i guess thats all i have now. its interschool swimming tmr. and its compulsory to go! shoots. why oh whyy.. but at least it'll be quite cool. though i reckon its more exciting actually participating in the races itself. and gahh! i'm missing xfyre (youth svc) for it. i dont really wanna skip xfyre. ): but i guess i dont really have a choice. ah well. its the weekend again! cool. which reminds me. NOT FAIR. i'm missing the j1 retreat thing this weekend. ): this is horrible. but ah well. you guys have fun bonding yeah! oii you(you know who you are)! dont be a spoilsport. hehheh. if you actually stop thinking about how much you dont like them, and actually get down and be their friend, maybe it wont be so hard for you and it might actually work out! and even if they treat you like an evil thing, and they dont want to hang out with you, its okay! you have other people who you are close to. and then its not your fault after that as well! just try. yea? (:

WOOTS~!! FIVE MORE WEEKS! :D



a shout of praise.
7:09 PM

Wednesday, March 8, 2006:


it just strikes me how sometimes you try to be a friend, something bad always happens to you. maybe its just me, and my actions and what i do that people dont like. maybe im not discerning enough. maybe things just happen because things do. i dunno.

its is getting to me again. i feel sad, yet glad. so many things have happened. relationships with parents, with friends. coming here to study, leaving home, choosing something else over jc life. and i do wish i were back home. home in my comfort zone. back in ac with everyone else, leading a perfectly normal jc life, with all the typical complaining, the day-to-day gossips, the lastest crush, the boring lectures, the strictest teachers, the cutest boy, the hippest class, who's cool and who's not. but yet, im still somewhat glad that im here. away from stressful jc, which claire claims to be awful. i dunno. i guess every situation has its good and bad side. its just the angle which you look at. jeannie said something today that was really important to me, she said that its better to look at the bright side rather than the bad cos there's just no point. thats true. i mean, i'm here. i ought to make the best out of this. i guess thats whats God's been trying to tell me this whole week. alot of things have happened this week. and its just making me realise that fretting and worrying isnt going to help anything. i should just put in my best and my hundred and one percent, and let God make the miracles.

im glad ive been able to talk to people from home recently.
to my parents - i know you two are reading this, thanks for listening to me, for encouraging me, even when im so temperamental and i lose my temper when ever i talk to you two, and thanks for everything, thanks for giving me verses, thanks for lending me an ear to my rubbish (although im pretty sure i made sense sometimes) and for being someone that i know i can cry to with out feeling embarrassed or awkward. although i still dont understand what the heck im doing here swamped with millions of things to do with you guys constantly nagging at me, i know that God is working in my life, and all these didnt happen by chance. thanks for strengthing that point. and i think its great that you guys always encourage me with verses.. i love you two.

to claire - hey, thanks for talking to me that night, thanks for cheering me up (although you didnt know you did, cos i didnt tell you i was sad, but you did! thanks heaps :D ) with all your nonsense, about the excruciating life of jc, and i'm thankful that i have you to talk nonsense and junk to. i really really miss you so so much, and when i get back, i've to tell you loads okay? we have to go out, and catch up loads! haha.

to kaye - hey! you know what, thanks for supporting me in prayer. remember the last time i called you? you prayed for me and for my life in school to be loads better, and your prayer worked! well, sorta. (: i still dont really like school. haha. but its better than before. its bearable. yepp. all the best in rj yeah? you've been a great part of my life, and i really really miss talking about stuff while walking home with you from btp. thats when we always have our serious talks about.. life? haha. yeah. its been really great.. i'll call you again soon.

to clem - haha. well. you can be my new phone buddy eh? haha. how long did we talk for? 3 hours? damn. haha. i dont even know what we were talking about, but it was great talking to you. (: and yepp. i know alot more things about you than i used to. haha. and thats cool!
to dean and james as well - you two can SHUT UP. otherwise the first thing i do when i get back is to whack you with the already very dented pink metal bottle. well. its been awesome knowing you three. and i cant wait to get back and hang with you 3 again. it would be really fun.. go to nydc at holland and have dinner again! and james you're not invited. hehheh. (: we can take lots more photos ay? gah. i just cant wait to get home. (:

to ken - ay. we only had that short phone convo before the phone got passed around. how were the three tests? cool? i hope you do well for chem and a math! theyre like the coolest subjects! and yeah. you have to do well. (: okayokay?

to prash - what on earth was up with the kkj (or whatever it was) thing? oii! sounds wrong. hehheh. i thought it was weilin. wahahha.

to sarah wong - aye. sorry, i didnt reply your sms! sorry sorry. but yeah! thanks for asking! im okay. got lots of things to tell you, i'll call you one day, i dont think its short enough to put over sms, so i didnt try to text you. yeah. loads of stuff. sigh.

to zong - oii. haha. alot of things make sense now. heehee. and i've told you this before. but anyways, thanks for always calling me on my mobile! haha. just wait till the phone bill comes out! yesyes. then you'll probably get the biggest scolding of your life. but dont worry! cos nothing is greater than talking to the goose right, mr duck? haha.

and last but not least, to sarah mok - zhenzhen, thanks for being my prayer buddy and thanks for confiding in me with stuff and in the same way, thanks for listening to my problems and fears. thanks for always being so sensible and so encouraging. i hope i can be as much help to you as you are to me! i love you dear. you're such a great friend. (:

well. thats about it. and yeah. im pretty glad that we're all still keeping in touch with another. and its been a really awesome 5 weeks. and its all to God's glory that i've survived and got alot less homesick than the first week. so i'm sure he'll still be the one who will solve up the messes in my life. well. there's still another 6 weeks more. and i can cope! hopefully. haha. anyway. i should go. i'll blog again.

ps: more photos are up! click here!!



a shout of praise.
4:17 PM

Monday, March 6, 2006:


gah. seems like the pic doesnt work even on a normal computer. hmm. i have to do something about this.

well. today was really bad. one of the worst days ever. why? because i went to the airport to see a friend off. he's going to go to sg to serve in NS and we'll never see him again until he comes back. and he's going to have all his hair shaved off as well. and yah. whatever army does to you. bleah. but thats besides the point. (cos i just recently got to know him and all. but he's a really cool guy) the point is that it just reminded me of the time when i left sg. and like all my friends were at the airport sending me off as well. well. it wasnt that dramatic that day was it. you guys just came and we were all chatting in our various groups and stuff cos there were so many of you and like. i just left like that cos we didnt take note of the time and i had to rush in already, so i left all of you looking at me through those huge glass windows. while i sauntered to the lady at the counter waving like some crazy woman at you guys. gah.

and well. today alot of emotions just flooded me. i felt really sad. cos bryan's (thats the guy - oh! he's cousin is in mg! :D ) family were all crying and i just missed seeing my parents, and i realised how hard it is to let go of your family members.

today was just a great day of realisations. and an eyeopener to many things that God wanted to tell me i guess. like in sermon, he reassured and reaffirmed my being in perth and like. he does have a plan for me. and well. God will work in mighty ways in my life. and He's going to use me for his big plan too. but one thing that keeps coming to my mind - i need to return to him and really follow him by faith and stop doubting him. and keep to his word. i have to do all that and commit my life to him before he can start making my life a wonderful experience and before he can really make full use of me. well. i need to stop procrastinating and start doing something about my life and my walk with him. its not going to be me in my comfort zone and doing what i like, its about what God wants me to do and i want to do whats best for my own spiritual growth. so yeah. i can do this. (:


I can't believe the way
Your love has got a hold on me
Each morning I wake to find You near
You lift me above my fears
And set my feet on solid ground
All of my days belong to You

And I breathe in Your breath of life that fills my heart
You are my all consuming fire
I stand here before You
In wide opened wonder
Amazed at the glory of You
The power of heaven
Revealing Your purpose in me
As I'm reaching for You
- Reaching for You, Hillsong



a shout of praise.
12:50 AM

Thursday, March 2, 2006:


so here i am sitting at my desk, looking out the window every 3 seconds, waiting for that blue mercedes to roll by, so that i can jump out of this seat, and say adios to this school for the next 4 days. man. i just cant wait to get out of here. i'm so sick of school, and lessons here go so fast and you have to study up so much on your own that its physically and mentally draining. and i'm not really the kind which would pick up my txtbk and read it unless my teacher says so. and yeah, with the results i'm producing, i can forget about going to melbourne U, i might as well just pack my bags and go home to do poly, not that its possible anyway, PAE is over.

sometimes i just feel so disappointed with myself, if i just work that bit harder, put in a bit more effort, stop gazing blankly at the teacher in class and actually take down some notes (not like i can understand what she's saying anyway..) maybe i would have done a little bit better on my tests. oh well. i shant just sit here whining and feel bad about myself. i should do something about it, hey? but dang, i just dont feel in it now. i just feel like sleeping or just stoning my day away. maybe i could be a professional droner. maybe i could teach people to relax for a living. oi, i could teach meditation! hahahha. just kidding.

oh yeah. i decided to not go to andrea's house after all. decided that if i were to go there, then my guardian has to come all the way up still. then our group decided to go to the city tmr, so i thought, hey, why dont i meet her in the city? but then i rmbed i had to lug all my luggage down with me and look like some tourist, when i could be hanging around looking like a typical school girl who is really on mid term break, skulking around looking for the Hot Hale Hunks. yeah right. ahha. i was kidding again, btw. so i decided to just get picked up today, and meet them tmr. take the bus or something to the city. though i would probably get lost along the way. i will ask for directions. or maybe i could demand that ernest send me to the city tmr. haha. good idea hey. but nah, that would be way too mean. haha.

i wanna go to the beach! i havent seen the beach.

then tmr after the city then i have to find my way to the lighthouse for crossfire (youth svc)... hmm. i'll probably call someone who can drive who's our age. bleah. this is so troublesome.

man, this weekend is probably gonna be spent sleeping and studying and slacking. getting rest. reflect on my life. and how i can improve it. i seriously need a personal assistant i tell you. to nag at me to do things.

bleah.



a shout of praise.
4:29 PM

Wednesday, March 1, 2006:


hmm. i'm trying to change the pic, but i cant see it, cos the server is too busy. darn.

btw. i just got a replacement phone. and yepp. its still the same number! so if you wanna call call! (:



a shout of praise.
7:50 PM